Mcm biaselah..tgh stress..tgh lonely inilah kerja saya..type jela pe yg saya rase. Saje je nak pndangan dr korg sume. Tapi xtau nak start mcmane. Mane ujung pangkalnye. Salah sape? Hmmm..mgkin saya dlahirkan sbg seorg yg byk sgt berpikir kot. Kenapa ya? Org slalu ckp, dgn pengalaman, kita boleh blajar. Mmg betol tp knape saya rase fobia je dgn pengalaman2 saye yg lpas? Mmg xtenang je hati ni slalu sgt pikir bkn2. Saya kesiankan org yg ade disekeliling saya lah..byk effect kt dorg. Hurmm, maybe I need a vacation kot. I need something to do to with my life.
Penah dgr org ckp dlm hidup ni kita x smestinya dpt pe yg kita nak..btol..tp kita mnusia slalu berharap kt sesuatu yg dia nak. Bile xdpt, mulalah ngamok sume.
People always take something for granted. betol x? bile ade depan mata, buat xtau je...xtau nak appreciate. tp bile da xde barulah nak nyesal, nak dendam nak sakit hati sume. nape cemtu? nape xnk jge je btol2? da dpt org yg baik, yg setia dia plak main2 kan..sama je lelaki ng pompuan. i dun talk about me. its general. bile ade lelaki baik, pompuan mainkan, xtau nak respect. lepas da xde, barulah nak ckp nyesal..
I've been tested one after another and here I am now, still trying to be strong with another tests from HIM..HE has given me really toughed tests diz year..I prayed He'll give me more strength for me to handle it..to carry on..to get through it to pass all His tests. As long as I know, selagi kita ikhlas, InsyaAllah He'll guide us to the right path. Only God knows what I'm going through right now. Sigh. Sangat menyakitkan. Walaupepun saya bsyukur dengan adenya family, kawan2 n seseorg yg byk beri saya semngat tuk terima dugaan ni. tapi yela..how can I be strong if baru bangun, baru je nak jalan, da jatuh balik..Ya Allah..I know..I know its a part of life, its a process for me to learn, to be a better person but hati ni sangat rapuh nak terima..im too fragile.. :'(
